Bi-polar day...

SO. Today was fun (please note sarcasm). I really do love my job, but 3 times a year I have these days right before graduation where a mental meltdown will more than likely happen (to my close friends to willingly endured me today, I apologize). The stress & timelines, just make for a horrid day.

Today was that day. But in the midst of all the stress, ciaos, and mental blanks, there were 2 students that touched me. With my job I have to make sure everyone is cleared for graduation. Because of this, I tend to get a good smattering of the population from traditional college students, to families going to school together, to non-traditional students returning after an absence, to adult first time students that are looking for a 2nd career.

These 2 students have both been working towards their degree for at least 10 years. Both have been trying to finish for the last 2 years consistantly. I have been rooting these two on because they were trying to overcome everything just to recieve, what the world sees as, a piece of paper. One has been trying to pass a class, the other - life just keeps getting in the way. Well... This time one passed and one didn't. One will finally graduate, the other will have to wait. I'm happy for the one that is graduating but I will be happier for the one who didnt, as long as they continue. I want to say "Don't give up, you're so close." "Keep pushing, you can do this".

Then I realize, there are so many people in this world who would just be good, if someone would say those words to them. We all get so caught up in our own lives (me worst of all), that we don't stop to notice those around us. If they need or want our help, if they are hurting, if they have enough, if I can help. I want to help people. I want to live outside myself. But I fail, miserablly, most of the time. I am a mess. I'm moody, emotional, clingy, needy, wanting of attention, bossy, OCD, and too may more to list. But I'm also loving, caring, loyal unto death, hard working, willing, realistic, wanting of more, childlike, and the list can go on as well. The point is I'm just one person, but I want to change the world one person and situation at a time. I'm not perfect, but I'm trying. I pray God opens my eyes everyday, to ways I can impact people for good and changes my heart and life little by little to reflect His grace that He has shown to me...